My Father's Message: Understanding God

Can you hear God? Do you know when God is speaking with you? Even though I grew up in church and attended private schools through college, I still never felt that I could hear the voice of God. I always thought, I already knew everything and how God and the Bible worked. I never understood what it meant when people said they heard God's speaking to them. Here I am wandering through life like Moses did in the desert for 40 years. Thinking that I know God. Thinking that I am following God. But in reality life had taken over me. I was going where ever the current of life wanted to take me. I spent over a decade trying to figure out what I was missing. Does this sound like you? Are you searching and searching but no matter which door you walk through you end up back at the door again. Please read on to discover how I found peace and understanding in my life.

Where does the story begin? Well at birth, of course. God is modeling us from the womb. Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations." God created us for one purpose. That is to praise God for creating, and to help the blind to see God's goodness. Everything else is a distraction.

Even though I grew up in the church community, and when to private church schools, I had no idea until recently how blind I had become to the message of God. I thought that I was living a humble and just life. I thought I was putting God first. I thought I was living in the will of God because I talked about living in the will of God. However, without my knowledge, I had backslid. I was drowning in my personal life, and in my career. Things had peaked and were coming back down the other side. I had seen this before. Maybe you have seen this in your own life. You have to go through a crash in your life before and you know what a crash is going to look like. Some call this experience. I had been through the crash before and it was extremely rough the first couple of times. My marriage was on the rocks, my job was on the fence, I was starting a new family, and we had just purchased our first house. The entire world began to collapse around me. I was trying to hold everything together and figure out the best solutions for my family. The stress was unmeasurable. I tried everything in my own power to get this under control, but it just got worse and worse.

Like a fool, the typical backslid Christian that I was, I waited until everything was burning around me before I fell to my knees and asked God for relief. Why do I only fall to my knees after everything falls apart? Why did I always wait until the last minute before reaching out to my Father and begging God to lift me back up. How many times do you have to fall on your face before you realize that God is trying to wake you up. He is trying to teach you a lesson. Since I already thought I knew the message of God, He could not speak to me. I was not willing and open to hearing how wrong I had become.

This time was going to be different, or so I thought. I could see the crash coming. At the beginning of the year, I felt a change coming on. I had been searching for answers for about 3 years now. I was reading books on anxiety and depression. I was reading books on Focus, and self control. I was looking into taking suppliments for energy and memory. People around me started beating me up for not doing the things that were expected of me. I was falling apart. I thought that God was going to give me a sign. How many of you are waiting for a sign before you commit? I thought God was going to provide me with a business idea that I could transition into while I still had my day job. God works miracles, and I believed that it was possible. However, as I began to learn, my Father's plan for my life isn't always the plan I have for my life.

After spinning my wheels for months trying to start my own thing, I asked God if the crash was avoidable. He clearly told me NO! There were lesson that I needed to learn, and I could not learn without going through the crash. Three months later, I lost my job. This was semi unexpected, and I didn't have anything lined up. However, God told me that he was changing me and everything was part of his plan. God told me the crash was coming. God told me that the crash was not avoidable. and God told me that we were working off of His plans and not mine. Like a child, sometimes we don't know what the Father is doing, but everything the Father does is to better the lives of his children.

The Change: I consider this my awakening moment. I began to be still and listen for God to speak to me. I found that in my life I have three small voices inside my heart. They all sound like myself as if I was talking to myself in my head. However, if you stop and listen they are not all the same. The voices you want to hear will be the voices you hear. Have you ever had an absolute terrible thought? Where did that come from? That was not me! No, it is not you. It is the devil speaking through you. Sometimes it is obvious and other times it is more suggestive to do the easier simplier thing. Most of the time it is not so obvious. God speaks the same way. A still, small voice. He is telling you what to do. When I began to hear God, I didn't want to be around people. The words of people are not the words of God, and I only wanted to hear and fill my life with the words of God. But how can we do the work of our Father if we are afraid of exposing ourselves to the sinfulness of the world. If God is with us, who can be against us? Focusing on God is like building muscle, and takes time and discipline.

I then started focusing on the present moment. Even when I was laid off, I only focused on the present moment. I was FREE. I was with my family. I was getting things done that needed to be accomplished. The worry of how am I going to pay my bills was not a thought. God said that he would provide. I even started donating to Christian radio when I didn't know where the money was coming from. And yet, God continued to provide.

Once you understand God as our Father, you will begin to fear God's wrath and judgement because you will see your sins. Then God will allow you to see how the universe operates. Nothing in the past exist anymore. Nothing in the future exist yet. God is the creator of all things. God created us in the imagine of him. We can do all things through Christ who strengthenth me. Have the faith of a mustard seed and see what God can do for you. We know these things to be truth, and Biblical, but we say them and do not understand!!!

Praise God the creator for speaking all that is into existence. Praise God for providing my soul with 5 senses to be able to experience the reality of this world. Please forgive me, I pray, for my selfish wants. Praise God for creating the future that I envision for myself. Praise God for health and abunance. Praise God for the opportunity to spread his message to those that are willing to hear.

Praise God in all things. Praise God all day. Praise God before an event. Praise God for the outcome before it is made manifest. Praise God for everything in its completion for the pertectness of it. All that is perfect and Good is God the Father. Anything that is lacking is of our own lack of faith.

Want to get rid of anxiety, depression, or any other ailment that is holding you down? The Bible says seek God the Father. Everyone will have their own life experience, but the ones that learn how to find God will live in peace. As soon as I began to give God praise for everything good and bad, my life immediately changed. I no longer have anxiety or depression which would spiral worse and worse in the past throughout a crash. God has removed all anxiety and depression from my life completely. Praise God. I was then laid off from a great paying job of over 23 years. God helped me to see that it was needed to establish the next step in my life on his journey. Not many other people could understand the calm I had or why I wasn't desperately hunting for a new job. God has allowed me to see all the things He has done in my life, and now even through one of the worst moments for a typical person, I only can see all the blessings I still hold in my life. I know now that this is not my plan, and God is in control. So hold on, sit back, and keep your head focus straight ahead on God. He will place you were you are needed, and provide for your needs along the way.

In conclusion, Be still, and seek God vigorously. Once you find God, be not afraid. Continue your developing your understanding and you will see that God is Love. God is Good. God is Just. Bad things happen to good people, and we dont know why. Good things happen to bad people and we don't know why. Good people are taken from this earth to soon and we don't understand. You do not have too understand what is happening around you if you understand God. Listen to your Father. He has a message for you. You have not been listening like you thought you were. Seek to hear the Father's voice. Listen to his direction. He will guide you and you will not be able or allowed to fall when you are in God's hands. Can you hear God? Did you hear yourself questions something right before you did it? Have you ever hesistated? If you have conflicting thoughts in your mind, it is not the voice of God. The voice of God is quiet and precise. Be silent and listen.

Praise God for your blessings throughout my life and in the lives of those around me. Thank you God for the understanding that you have bestowed on my heart. I pray that I honor and please you in all that I do. Thank you Father, for life I will live in the future and all the details that I have imagined, and all the details that you control. Thank you for peace in my life in the present moment. Thank you for this perfect moment in time. Praise be to God the Father for allow me to be a light unto the world. Thank you for using me to be a messanger for you so that others can come to understand the same understanding you have allowed me to experience.

Praise God for the ones reading this. Bless their lives, and may they come to have full understanding of you. Anything is possible once you understand God's creation and how it works. It is similar to building muscle. You will have to start before God will show you how to tweak it to work properly. You will have to push for weeks, months, years, before you will see the results. Loving God and understanding God is like building a muscle. Just start, and keep pushing and God will show you when it is your time. It took me over 10 years to see how far away from God I had drifted. It took 3 years for me to find this understanding on my own. I am now writting this blog to help others realize that you do not have to do it on your own. God is ready to provide you with the wisdom of Solomon as soon as you are ready to recieve it.

AMEN.